First, I found what I thought would be a Very Good Gift Indeed, and I packaged it up carefully and mailed it off with that tiny euphoria that comes with finding just the right thing for the right person. Second, there was an extra smidgen of delight when tracking showed the package would arrive earlier than expected. And then third: the crushing blow of the tracking information showing that delivery was complete, but the package being nowhere to be seen. Fourth was the half-hearted planning of steps to take to recreate the Gift, accompanied by disappointment and idle angry musings about whether something nefarious happened to the package. Fifth, the denouement: the package belatedly and somewhat mysteriously appeared at its destination. Pleased relief, with a small black void left where all the previous feelings used to be. Don't fall in that void. Try to recapture the tiny euphoria of step one.
It seems a little odd, I know, to experience this roller coaster over something as relatively mundane as mailing a Gift. Ongoing Pandemic Life has been so Difficult, though, that the smallest of pleasures become magnified. Small stakes inadvertently seem like bigger stakes. It's all we have.
One day at a time, we go onward.
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