A lovely woman, whom I have gotten to know through the marvels of the internet, sent me an article:
Hunger Makes Me.
(You can find it here: http://hazlitt.net/feature/hunger-makes-me)
How to describe this article? In many ways, it was like looking into a mirror; or perhaps, it was, at long last, having someone explain so clearly, so beautifully, why things are the way they are.
Women are often on a diet of the body, but we are always on a diet of the heart.
This is how it is.
How many times have I thought: if I could only eliminate my wants and my needs -- erase myself entirely --- then how much easier, how much better, things would be. No expectation, no anticipation; whatever was given, would be more than enough.
This is why Abnegation in the world of Divergent is so appealing.
And yet: it is part of what it is to be human.
I do not know.
Perhaps the first step is to Ask.
I do not know how to Ask.
Perhaps I need to learn.